I'm super demoralised n demotivated now..

honestly..
i really feel sian..
after meeting my og at marina square just now..
maybe it's just the first meeting ba..
but i really dun feel the click in me n the rest of them..
the guys feel so grown up..
n i'm still so much like a child..
they are all taller..
more dark tanned,
n slimmer..

n hm..
i really feel detached from the rest of the grp..
i just hope it's only the first day..
tat's why like tat..
else this union orientation camp..
going to be utterly disappointing to me..

sigh..
i feel so sian now..
wld just like so one who can understand my feelings..
but dunno who to say it to..
did whine a bit to two frens just now..
but still.. much bothered lah..
so sad.. -_-

sian!
just hope things get better..
ok..
not going to see post for quite some time liao..
the camp's going to start from tmrw all the way to sat..
sigh..