my 51th post..

Just realised i hit my 50th post le.. :)
time flies..
n quite a lot of things hath changed..
one thing for sure..
the new sem is starting in 2 weeks time..
with wat attitude i am to face it.. is something worth pondering n deciding confidently.

Attitude towards school n ecas hath changed a lot..
from the starting gan pia.. super enthusiastic..
with dreams..
to slowly.. trying to become more confident n understand wat i'm trying to do..
to giving myself reasons (lousy ones) so tat i can be lazy n slack

to be honest..
i hath lost my fire n enthusiasm in a lot of things..
i longer feel the onness n desire to pia n experience new things..
then now.. i'm beginning to see the chances.. so many of them passing me by..
just because i refused to give myself the opportunity to go ahead
n only procastinate n think abt them slowly..
not deciding on it until it's too late for me to hop on..

Regrets eh.. when i told myself not to hath when i came to uni..
from results to ecas to life..
i tried, i did but i didn't hold on tight enough..

confidence is wat i lacked, chances are wat i didn't try to grasp
n determination is wat i dun hath enough to bring me through

now's a good opp
the union's camp in one day's time. on monday..
i'm going to step through 2 weeks of non stop action
but how i'm going to do..
depends on how much i'm really ready to put in..

This time..
Stronger i must be..
for there is no second chance every time..