Hath urself a merry little christmas

This holiday since it started had been jam packed with activities
haven't even spent decent time at home..
before i'm whizzed off to somewhere to do something..
not tat it's not good..

but there are certain drawbacks..
esp when i get enough time to walk down a street slowly at night..
when music such as "hath urself a merry little christmas" plays in the background..
the world suddenly feels so lonely..

even the christmas lights tat shine so brightly..
feels eluding..
n the stuff i run away from or pretend it's nothing..
gets so strong lately..
even a moment feels like an eternity..

"If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough
And have yourself A merry little Christmas now"

it's my bday today..