Games?

It has been a while since i touched any computer games le..
n so long since i hath been scolded for playing games.. haha..
come to think of tat..
i actually missed terribly those days..
really..

now tat games no longer make any sense to me..
nor does it bring abt any desire in me..

i feel so empty..

went to play lan(counter strike) for 2 hours today..
n back at home..
turned to playing virtua tennis..
just stopped playing..
n it's already 1230am.. 5th of sept..
haha..
i dun feel happy..
now tat i hath my freedom..
to play watever i wan..

cos there's really no meaning in playing anymore..
only to hide from wat i'm actually feeling..
haha..
so strange.. -_-

i feel lost..
again..
sigh..
haha..

just very alone all of a sudden..
again..
it's days like this u wish someone noes how u're feeling..
n yet..
u dun wish to tell anyone abt it..
haha..
irony?

haha.. i'm a fugitive..
a runaway..
someone who cannot face up to wat he's feeling..
n hath to wear a mask every single day..
every single time..
every single moment..
haha..
n i'm having a hard time keeping it all inside..