Exiled 放逐

A movie about mo qi zhong de nan ren
interesting use of story telling
and interesting depiction of buddies
with francis ng, anthony wong, nick cheung, ron cheung, richie ren
and the latter part of tossing a coin to determine where to go
and wandering around
seems to mirror lotsa things

hmm
in a way.. reflects my feelings this past week
if a coin has two sides, my feelings are doing the head and tails as well

congratulations for dude for getting married man
so surprised when u told me over lunch
and the surprise meetup w ur wife-to-be and her sisters
stunned me the whole day

the daily dosages of life at its core
where i can see lotsa
i'm not sure how to say it

thoughts and feelings tugging me from within
two sides
mm
maybe more

心处于感触的季节
零零碎碎 点点滴滴
难受
莫名的 不由自主

别笑了

这几天
心情起伏不定

看
人面对生老病死时，无助，无奈

听
人面对悲伤时，笑里藏着的凄凉

问
人互相猜疑，睁眼流泪互不妥协的执著

尝
黑暗吞噬寂寞，手握住的空虚

拼命笑只觉可笑

笑
眼泪倒流，心装不了这么多

帮不了多少人, 多少人帮不了

开始分不清
混淆浑浊
怎样

就算
回声都没有

就算
束手无策

Mediator

I'm all but a mediator

you got to resolve the issues yourselves
i can only advise
i think you all think too much
and talk too little
wat's wrong, wun the misunderstanding get deeper
it doesn't feel good to be the in between person
and it doesn't feel good for the rest of us as well.

honestly think i'm quite bad at this kind of stuff
wanna cry and ask how things end up this way
all the time
and yup
what for i try at all
cos i can't let it go on like this
i can't
you all please make a conscious effort k
while i do what i can

It's still bugging my tots

心里好不踏实

hm.. i dun feel relieved after submitting the fyp report..
turns out i feel myself on tenterhooks all the time..

like wat the prof will ask
wat the prof will get back to me
wat to answer..
n whether i can improve on it..

how come..
this time it's really bugging me..

i dun need a v high grade
just an average B will surplus..
sigh

year 4

lonely in thoughts.

it didn't feel good

无奈，无助。
不好受
不喜欢把友情当筹码