It feels quiet

hmm..
not used to this silence..
it feels deafeningly quiet tonight..
even with the music player on..
the fan purring
and the warmth of the lappie..

there seems to be something missing..
this void tat opens up
like an old wound..

it's 329am
n it feels like morning for me..
just woke up a while ago..
cos the night just lulled me to sleep a bit too early for bedtime

now it feels too awake for another round
n yet.. too late if i dun turn in..

maybe the thought of tmrw's date w fyp examiner's
keeping me on my toes now..

maybe a prior hype abt grad trip and short getaways'
tilting me towards a heightened sense of excitement

lotsa maybes
but yet it feels tat none wholly answers the question..

i feel myself feeling this nite..
so deeply..
resonating w it.. a certain unsettling calm..

a peace that's rioting..
so quiet

好久都没说的话,
你好吗