Gaming

ok.. listening to chrono cross's music
leads me to dream of the future more and more

be a game creator and not just a programmer who write to specs

and i believe
the true beauty of games is that many years down..
the fondness stays and everytime a familiar name, a familiar place
a familiar tune sounds.. that bell in you rings..
and you feel all the feelings again..

the moment matters
as well as what stays with you..

tat's the vision, my vision.

Definition

What defines ___ for you

I keep thinking abt what ifs
and my adventurous self just wanna go outside and see the world
yet..
there's this side of me that binds it hard to the nomenclature world

and there's enough lax for me to think
and hu si luan xiang quite a bit.

if this path is chosen for a reason
where do i go from here on
straight ahead and bash through
or jump out of all this

愛不疚

收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右
爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑后 能全然退后
你开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了 你听到后或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有
成全衷心祝福
然后就放手

放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有
还有这个好友
已经
已经足够

遥远是宇宙
静静在背后
去看守就够

这种感觉太亲厚
讲一千句也不够
即使一刹 有过冲动挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有
不需真正拥有
成全 多舍不得
仍然
是放手

放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有
还有这个好友
已经
已经足够

放手 我的牵挂找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许 爱很深厚
然而我早看得透
放手
至可拥有

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feels as if been through a lot
watching drama sorta brings me through lotsa experiences again
who says watching drama isn't useful
haha.. it's a mini crash course on life
and its many lessons

and yup..
希望在明天!

末日之恋

woke up this morning at 7 am..
humming this song when i woke up..
haha..

末日之恋

剩下没多少时间
让我再唱一首歌给你
一过了今夜世界就毁灭
我想我还有一天
可以学会如何来爱你
在来不及以前渴望来得及

闭上眼睛忍住泪别哭泣
末日前夕请留在我怀里
看太阳暗去月光失明
我只想牵你的指尖绕地球最后一圈
黑夜降临别害怕我爱你
末日前夕请留在我怀里
我在这世界最眷恋的事情
就是曾拥抱你

多想永远拥抱你
我感受到什么在剧烈颤抖
是天空或者你的手
别让任何事情打断我看着你
最后一次看着你

i rem all those late nights
and those rushing assignments..
when i'm all alone..
z chen's songs always seem to pop up in my head..
and acc me till the day breaks..
haha..

人生如戏

If life's a big drama serial,
I wonder wat the next episode holds..

at least the past episodes been exciting n great fun..
hahaa..

aching
n i slept for 13 hours

Sleeper

I'm sleeping my life away..
somebody save me

:|
been sleeping n sleeping
during lectures..
when i'm just taking a break..
i'm just dozing off somewhere..
the rest of the time when i'm not sleeping
i'm just eating..

tui fei..

i'm always half an hr late for lecture
cos i keep oversleeping..
morning call me anyone.. :S

Life's like ba chor mee

it comes in dry, soup,
ai hiam, mai hiam..
lotsa vinegar, little vinegar..

sometimes u get ba chor,
sometimes de gua,
sometimes lean meat
sometimes mushrooms
n sometimes even zhu you za..

ohh..
u can hath mee kia
or mee pok
or even kway teow mee
or tung hoon
or bee hoon
or mi tai mak..

woo.. lotsa diff combos..
life..
u nvr noe wat u gonna taste
until u put into ur mouth
n it tastes differently for different ppl..

Upgrades!

Upgraded my 1Mbps to 3Mbps today..
woo!
hahaha.. then finally put my new comp to use..
20 inch LCD plus speakers n subwoofers! :P
keep playing 心雨 n 退后! :D
oh.. n i can type chinese le.. hahaha..
my v own KTV! :D

wireless activated too!
pity vista can't support lotsa games..
oh well.. :)

Katong!

arrhhh..
today went katong for ktv today..
this ktv called teo heng really affordable n the mike's good!
check it out oh!
they only charge the room..
no per head charge :)

oh.. we sang for one hr + then had to leave cos the rooms fully booked..
then went walk ard katong!
lotsa shop houses, restaurants, cafes, coffeeshops, pet shops..
lotsa things to see..
so mesmerized tat i felt i was in a diff country.. :)
want to slowly walk n try all those food out..
arhh! saw this dou gan bao i was quite tempted to try out..
but my stomach not v hungry to eat all tat up..
oh... n the katong laksa! i'm in katong w/o eating laksa.. y y y!

will go Katong walk walk again!

oh.. rem bday 6.1!

Bt Timah -> K

Somethings are wu nai
not thinking too much..
cherish the moment jiu hao ba!

wat's left is the song

Officially blank

Ok..
I'm officially out of juice
all output n no input makes TL dull n blank

time to break away from it all
n recharge myself

thanks to all those who cared

it honestly feels weird
my mind's stopped working the way it used to

COR 2007!

Just a few hours away.. hahaha..
ok.. ard 13 hours to go! :P
to COR 2007!
Camp Outreach from 15-19th June!
:D
the big day is finally here! :)

jiayou all! and thanks for everyone's hard work!
let's put up a great show! :)

Time.. how much do i hath

time is slipping away..
must cherish
jiayou!

music : Leaving the body - Yasunori Mitsuda

New Start!

First day w/o attachment..
i'm....
watching new show!
hahaha.. recommended by fatty pal

"换换爱 Why Why Love"

hahahaha.. check it out!
got he junxiang and yang cheng ling!

oh.. a happy thing today
received a long distance surprise greeting from hk! :D
thanks! :)
haha but i still waiting for presents.. wahaha.. :P

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some fragments to add on
stuff i did in the afternoon to now.
went cor sign lang crash course, it was rather short.. :O
nvr went azabu sabo cos broke n eating dinner at home :x
instead ate at jp the scoopz icecream!
mm.. icecream tat spirits u away! yum!
dota at home w bro teaching me
ah boy came n played mahjong
me n ah boy got chased by a cat at the void deck
dota some more
listening to zhang dong liang's new song
"wang zi"

我是孤傲的王子 做我的故事
用泪稀释的往事 渐渐消失
我是孤傲的王子 优雅的固执
用我倔强的方式 尽情放肆

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Concussed last nite after my sis took over the comp
so only wrote half way for yest entry..
included today's entry as well in this post :)

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Thurs 7/6/2007
Last working day [Attachment]
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Today's my last working day.
mm..
5 months of attachment..
n today ends it all..
Was busy doing clearance for most of the day..
running all over the place to get signatures..
didn't really hath time to sit down n talk w the lab ppl..
most of them wasn't in the office as well..
either on mc or called to go down site..
mm.. no chance to really say goodbye to everyone..

oh well.. at least it wasn't all so bad..
or actually to say..
it was honestly great! :)

haha..with the morning breakfast crew!
me, senior n fatty pal! woo.. hahaa..
we met at 740 to go buy breakfast at redhill market for the lab ppl!
long time nvr wake up tat early..
i guess it's the same for them too.. nan de we 3 buy breakfast tgt! :D
hahaa.. my first n last time buying for them..
redhill carrot cake! yummy!! :D and dou jiang, chwee kway! sumptous! :D
thank you fatty pal n senior who acc me in morning to buy..:)
noe u all bu shun lu.. so.. :)
thank you ah ma who offered also! :)

breakfast in the lab was fun..
all of us huddled ard the small table in the meeting room
munching our carrot cakes and chwee kway while the smell filled the air..
the cups of dou jiang was deformed though as a result of poor carrying.. :P
but it was joy eating tat mouth watering breakfast w everyone so enjoying them..
the effort was worth it! :) happy!

fatty pal's shoes got stolen by bt! hahaa.. then she stole bt shoes in return..
haha.. it was funny seeing fatty pal wear bt big shoes like mr macdonald
n walking ard.. hahaa..

afternoon..
most of them left to chicken rice w boss..
leaving me, pong pong, fatty pal, kah hwee n aishi..
n it's the jie meis tuan outing again! hahaha..
though none of us were really hungry..
we went ya kun at safra mt faber
to get the french toast w cheese set w eggs! mm :D
cravings! hahaha.. n it was again.. satisfying! hahaha
hong qing ting! :D and yi lu shun feng.. :)
nostalgic songs!

next up was the good byes n all..
nobody cried.. but the feeling was still so bu she de..
as i looked at the seat i sat for 5 months..
time turned to a standstill..
n for a moment, it was as if i was coming back tmrw..
but i wasn't..
n it took me quite an effort to not say the "next time we can ..."

my table was empty..
gone were my monkey who held a anti TL slogan of SPCA by jj..
gone were my lionhead who said i agreed..
gone were my rock lee who said i was ***
gone were so many good times.. the laughter..
the weird stuff we did.. mm memorable..
things i nvr tot i wld experience in just 22 weeks..

like wat i like to say..
time is relative..
the time here was really nan wang :')

to end off the day,
fatty pal gave me this hello panda which writes
"tian tian chi, tian tian kai xin! :)"
then pongy gave me this pocky stick! :)
ni men you xin le :)
oh.. after work,
fatty pal, aishi n ah ma treated me
to hagen daz fondue! :D first time eat..
xin fu! :D thanks!
hahaa.. :)

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Fri 8/6/2007
Farewell [Attachment]
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Had farewell function at holiday inn park view hotel ballroom today
5 tables and hotel style high tea buffet
with waiters always on standby and chandaliers!
just for we 13 interns n supervisors..
hahaa.. a bit too grand..

was there since morning to rehearse
for the event in the afternoon
mm gan kai again..
5 months just passed like tat..
still feel sorta mo sheng w the interns..
then we leaving each other
n maybe not meeting each other le
our last function tgt..
n the last organising comm we be in tgt probably..
mm there's this feeling to wan to noe u all more..

food wise,
it was vietnam style high tea buffet..
oh! had a xiao cha qu..
there's this sugarcane prawn
where the prawn meat was wrapped ard the sugar cane..
i didn't noe.. n took a half bite off the thing..
n i was eating sugar cane! n it's so hard like teng tiao!

paiseh! cos everyone was just tearing the prawn meat
n leaving the sugar cane behind..
i didn't noe n was trying hard to chew the thingy..
telling others not to eat cos it's so hard..
haha.. when everyone saw.. their first reaction was laugh..
hahaa.. bleh.. i nvr eat before ma..

mm.. the surprise came
when tingxing and fiona came to grace my farewell function.
they brought a gift from the lab ppl!
it was a plaque (plate) from them!!
with the best PM award! :D hahaha..
xiang bu dao! then everyone wrote on the plaque (plate)
:) happy to receive something ling lei! hahaa..
though i was thinking of something like a card
oh well.. now i hath to put it on my table..
hahahaha
:)
thanks ppl!

ok..tat abt sums up my attachment..
lotsa memories tat i can't put in words
mm.. appreciate the small little stuff
u all did to touch my heart.. :)
xie xie!
Thanks for the times n the smiles n the food..
miss ya all!

Last 2nd Day [Attachment]

Today's my last 2nd day of attachment..
happy! :)
firstly, i was doing something these days i actually felt fun in..
hahaa.. rushing to set up a server and do database stuff
within my last two days was no easy feat..
but the excitement of putting your best forward
with no strings attached was really shuang.. :)

then today, while i was doing my work..
my long lost sec sch good fren msged me! surprised!! hahaha.. :D
she was in my tower..and she dropped by my office to say hi!
haha.. so long nvr see her le.. :D
since sec sch, jc hor..
at least 4 years le! :) ar!! :) so long..
my heart raced dunno how many rounds n skipped dunno how many beats..
to see her again! :) elated!
she looked even more charming than i last saw her..
n spoke with much more grace than i ever knew..
arrhhhh melts.. hahaa.. :P somehow felt like i nvr change much except become fatter
mm didn't talk long.. cos we had to leave to do other stuff..
must meet up soon again k! :)

next up was dragon gate dim sum buffet!
hahaa.. the lab ppl treated me to eat dim sum! :P *slurps*
hahaa.. my table was the jie mei table..
got fatty pal, kah hwee, jie, ah mah, yw mei n me, senior, tingxing n fiona..
9 ppl.. n we washed off 70+ long of dim sum..
n tat's excluding 6 bowls of porridge, 2 bowls of soup and 5 bowls of mapo doufu n vege..
amazing feat since tx n fiona stopped quite early.. hahaha
*stuffs* lab ppl trying to feed me fat..
hahaha :P
pity pong pong n sh n jj they couldn't eat..
we must eat again soon!
oh! the breakfast tmrw! :)
my last day eating w u all before going back to sch life.. treasure treasure! :)

Burnt out

Submitted video for vetting today..
hope they're happy w it and dun hath much changes..

finally i can get a good sleep..
my tots so preoccupied with doing the video lately
that i'm like half awake and half asleep these few days

so tired
Time to sleepp...

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sidenote:
hath this bad feeling coming up.
can't explain it..
maybe just my instincts acting up again.. hmm

on the good side,
a v v long lost good fren msged me today..
so long nvr see her!
though things feel vastly different,
i guess it's natural ba?

to be honest,
i feel quite distant from ppl nowadays..
dunno if it's just me..

Video Editing Blues

Grr..
can't install the ulead software borrowed from senior..
dunno wat data cyclic error..
then my desktop cd rom drive can't read the cd at all.. :S

now i'm stuck with half of my video undone
and using the windows movie maker grrr..
there's a **** prob with splitting the video footage using maker
and those i split using ezsplitter just dun work w maker
says some codec not installed..
y like tat.. when i can view them all w media player n real player..
unfriendly movie maker! n no overlay..

ahhh..
i can't extract the part i wan from the raw stuff w/o it going haywire..
disgusted..
how to hath enough stuff to put in!!
*strained*

by monday need to hand in the huo le..
T_T
work around work around.. how do i work around..
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condition : runny nose with two cups of instant teh..

mood : hanging stress,, teh high

sidetrack : xmas time rocks again!
hahaa.. 3 angels got main comm post in hi!
xf coord, zc clementi ch, leonard kallang ch..
charlie is proud of u all.. wahaha..

Tick tock..

5 more working days..
and my IA's all done.

yes.. the feeling of leaving the lab ppl is getting to me..
esp after today,
saw pong's email..
tat it's maybe one of the last few updates to me..
suddenly gan chu le..
mm time's slipping away so fast..
so fast..

today also celebrated the last bday in lab..
mm soon i wun be able to be in the lab w u all le..

although a bit early.. but just feel like saying..
*murmurs*
everyone must take care oh.. keep the pantry full n clean
everyone regular exercise and eat well k..
laugh more
and the life there will pass super fast de..
everyday's a great day! :)

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there are things i can't see
but there are those i can see..

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music : ping ming - ke you lun

Video Editing

tired..
after work, come home seh..
then hath to do farewell video but dunno how to do..
time running out le..

inspiration where are you..
n i dunno how to use windows movie maker..
haha.. how..

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currently: watching videos and listening to music, mm